left for dead

from the darkness to the bright
from my birth to death
from all the years i couldnt speak
from all the months i couldnt see
you were never listening
never even mattered to you anyway
just another obstacle in your way
just an excuse for unhappiness
i regret as much as u do
for being put here on this earth
as your spawn as your mistake
as your denial grows and grows
never lived for yourself
you put your life on my shoulders
i was not born to take on your old and new
i was not born to take on the life you never
owned on your own
yet you beat me
rape me
justify yourself some more
stab me in the heart one more time
for i am still breathing
my heart still beats slowly
too cold and black
from time to time
inherited straight from demons
that i called my blood
go ahead and take me down
daring you for the last moment
last few breaths i have
will not be wasted.