take it with a grain of salt but sink in

im giving this one last try
all my heart soul
and anything else i can spare
just know this is the last time you dare
take it all for granted
and despite all the differences
putting it all aside
we cant run or hide from it
but moving on is what i can do
moving on is what you can do
dont bring out my hate
i dont like myself that way
if you like hate and the evil ways i hide
keep going this on this path
and i will walk away
not run but walk
and will never be by your side.

this broadcast was brought to you by someone you have never met

you look very different since the last time we met
somethings very wrong
all of us here know why we are this way
we dont judge or criticize something we cant explain
we have to stay true to what really lies
beneath all of this mess in our sight
i have to be strong enough
and not let you take me down
you were just a decoy to make me forget
but know i will always remember
i will not let your pessimistic self
get in my way
im too far better than what i was
im never going back with you
so you might as well just save it for now
everyone here knows why we do what we do
we all see the light and know its true
i have to be strong enough.

oh god this invisible bond that we share is gratifying through and through

i feel your presence by my side daily
i listen to your words that you constantly
whisper in my ear
i follow the way you have told me
i know you are there always
oh god the way it feels knowing you are in me
its beyond our way of thinking
i know you are in my heart
i feel it regularly
special to you i see very clear through
understanding what they cant
being able to look beyond the flesh
straight into your soul and heart
they can run but they wont hide from me
this knowledge i hold in my mind
pictures and lights distract me from civilization
fear of others knowing and judging
i just keep it inside
but dont for once
oh god this love you have for me
so pure so justifiable so alive
i will never let you down
i will fight by your side until the end
i will continue using my power for good
and letting me know whats wrong and right.

im walking away from all of this

this isnt how it was supposed to be
we were supposed to be fruitful and free
they took the virus and infected everyone
no one will be cured.
no one to blame but ourselves
we did this to us
and all our surroundings
we might as well just surrender
i give it all whatever you want
just give me my soul back
i think ill be able to use it later
take it all take my heart
take my life
take this worthless shell im stuck in
i just know we werent supposed to
be so deceitful and hateful
i will not take that with me to the end
i know it wasnt supposed to end this way
for all who dont believe
may the destruction rise upon you.

it takes two to battle even if one is present

cant imagine life without you
maybe this time i will
in a picture perfect world
love wouldnt be this way
distorted visions of the past
seem to make you believe
im impossible
thoughts of calling it quits
just to better you
i can imagine your life without me
oh how much happier you would be
insane and crazy free
live your life to your fullest
quit worrying about me
ill be fine
your hopes and dreams
should be what your reality
for sees
dont even deal with this mess
its not yours at all
you dont have to claim it
open your eyes and you will see
that im gone
sudden sadness might arrive
but in time you will be alright.

i walk alone

lets put it all out there
no holding back
selfish inconsiderate person i am
im needy addicted
im so lost without
without the right direction to go
having no place to call home
wandering this hopeless place
with no shoes on
i swear i can find hope anywhere
but you all are for too gone
cant see anything but destruction
for miles
all that we caused
we are the blame that the worlds in
complete chaos
we are to blame for the disorder
you will know me by the scars i bare
you will know me by the hate i swear
you will know me before you die.
traveling spreading the word of good
i will not stop until the whole world
knows we caused all of this
the sick the viruses the diseases
the wars the destruction
the hate and the crimes.

precise point that im gonna live for the first time

putting myself aside again
to make you feel more alive
whens my time to come
where i can live my life
do you see this chain reaction
of sorrow and pity
that you have
i will not be forced to blame myself
i will not be forced to fit in your shoes
i will not be forced at all
for i am dead to you
so dead to you
if you buried me up
you would choke on my ashes
for so long i tried to overcome this
this wrath ive called my own
once i wanted to conquer the world
disorder and unruly vessels
in an unhabitable place is not what i need
disappearing to find my hopes and dreams
disappearing to find myself again
disappearing to satisfy all their hunger
all the thirst of stability is gone.
im all alone.

coming in between the fine line of life and death

bloods running thin
the air has been getting too thick
closing in my breathe day by day
using my lungs for no good
i cant go on this way
cant keep putting everything on myself
im getting too weak
fragile on the inside
boasting on the outside
its all a hoax and you know it
yet you keep on disappointing me
disappointing myself
this life is getting to akward for my taste
i cant feel my heart anymore
i cant take this anymore
just let me bleed
just let me breathe
just let me fight for my life
when im ready to.

dead to myself

im so sick and tired
of being sick and tired
rearranging myself in the
mirror for the last time
blame me for all your problems
blame me for all your faults
been there done that
been beating before
and lost in this whirlwind
i call myself for way too long
tried and tried to make sense of it
still getting nowhere
believing that maybe i
just belong alone
forever
cant seem to keep both feet
on the ground
just as soon as i feel stable
there i go slipping again
you dont know whats its like
being me
please just dont try to make me happy
theres no point
just let me sit here and remain
the person ive become
ill figure out whats right and wrong
even if it kills me
i may kill me inside and outside.

looking out movin on

hiding out again
what did i do for this break
can you smell the air in this life
can you feel the vibes running through
im eating for three now
i cant seem to keep us all full
all my resources have dried up now
its time to pick up and move
press on to a higher ground
carrying all of this disaster on my shoulders
giving nothing to spare
despair has been my long look
salvation is my future
coming to the light a little faster
i will stand by my fears
i will trust me only from now on.

honestly just lies

catching you in a lie
this isnt the first time
i know more than what you know
but yet u still try to deceive me
i wont be making a fool of
i finally give you my heart
and this is the payment i have received
cash in the balance you have left with me
credit the rest to someone elses heart
you will not take me down with
your boasting of love no longer
breaking these walls were difficult
enough
imagine them building back up
stronger and more stiff
to my emotions mentality and heart
my heart grows colder by time
my eyes gloss over for the last time
taken forsaken no longer
i can see straight through all your lies.

do you still belive in your god

i have falling extremely hard this time
i awoke the minute i hit the ground
every aspect started to come to me
every second making sense of the next
i fell by myself
with no one to pick me up
but myself
oh how long it took for that to come about
inevitable to anyone elses eyes
i despise the actions i took to get this way
regretting none of it
changing the outcome of my life
one by one my memories seem to be failing
one by one my emotions seem to die
day by day i feel less alive.

im so sick

sick of the lies
sick of the deceit
sick of this disturbing life
sick of me
sick of life
sick everytime i breathe in
sick everytime i breathe out
sick of sleeping
sick of waking up
sick of all the people around me
sick that i cant get out.

theres no hope left here

my life thus far has been a waste
living by your standards
has kept me angered and hostile
confusing your words with my own
rearranging myself to fit in your mold
my heart has long grown cold
my writs have been slit and sewn
as my eyes roll back into my head
i remember who i was
i reminesce on my passion
disturbed from this place
forgetting all that was planned
leaving my dreams and ambitions behind
as i stand here naked
i can no longer disguise the pain
the hurt is lifelong
the damage wont be undone
your sickening behavior has
tied me down
i no longer want to move forward
just let me suffer alone
i will make peace in death.

the only survivor has been taken

you sit in your corner
ill sit in mine
we will stare through the stages
blank and lost in our own gluttony
we are the virus
we have brought our kind here
we have created this greed and desire
superficial thoughts and materialistic mannerisms
knowing the change was needed
my voice didnt carry so far
as i knew this day is turning black
the gates are no longer open
tell me its not too late to fight
fight for our way home
i was misguided
following the wrong for many miles
let me find my way back
leaving you in this destruction
i will no longer beg
i will find my way to my spiritualitic healing
i will find my way home
bringing the life back into my eyes
i will no longer be under this disease
we call normal.

the walls are closing in

my words not coming to me
like they should
stopping in mid sentence
as though i fell asleep
or just died
theres no reason for me to
know why this is or isnt
the plan
that we were supposed to choose
no one can listen to me now
for the words wont come out
my silence kills us now
for we do not know whats next
from the light of the gates to
the shadows of death
this day is very gray
could this be the end of it all
you will see in your next life
you will see in you next life.

the outlook is much better

i just keep trusting that everythings going
to be alright
change may be good
as long as your not losing who you are
i believe in u are what you let yourself be
we are in control of our destinies
soaking in misery for why you are what
you are doesnt solve your problems
open up your eyes
see how much you have gained
open up your eyes
and look at whos beside you
if no one is there
you must not be giving your all
ok ok okk oooookkkkkk
lifes going to turn out ok
stop all these nonscense claims
unjustifying actions you perceive
as abandonment
you cant fool me
i see feel and look right through you
open up your eyes
am i next to you.

silence kills

trying to open my heart up
all the way to let you inside
im fighting the walls that block you out
one day at a time
just to say you are my all
why cant i just believe every
word you speak to me
whats in the past
keeps me scared and solitary
whats in the past
drives me constantly
to make the wrong choices
in my path and yours
why cant this just break
and let me be free from this
let me love and trust
and care and support
you the way i should
be the best that i can be
for the one that deserves the most.

with you i am saved

you showed me the light at the end of my tunnel
you showed me how i should be loved
you showed me just how special i am
you showed me true passion
ill show you who you really are
ill show you the best in you
ill show you just how you need to be loved
ill show you that there is hope after all
ill be with you through the good and bad
ill be with you through happy and sad
ill be the best for you
you are the best for me.

the world isnt ready for this

put your hand in mine
and walk with me
let me take you to a place
where you only dream of
fantasies become realities
and everything you have
ever wanted is here
put your heart in mine
and feel them beat together
put your fears in me
i can be scared for both of us
put your hurt and pain on me
i have a high tolerance
i will be you
and you will be me
together we are going to make the difference
prove them wrong
and make history
we will conquer it all.

buried in the middle

so far too gone
my bed has been made
im ready to lay down for life
just let me have peace
for the rest of my stay here
ive given up completely
preparing for the punishments
i deserve every beating i get
chewed swallowed spit out
my silence is keeping my composure
my screams will end my silence.

bringing myself out

havent felt so lonely in a while
really like it this was
blissfully smiling
true happiness
its all because of us
holding on strong
putting up with alot
doesnt break us down
i surely would have thought
i would have self destruct by now
i may be alone most of the time
but making up for it by being by my side
maybe not physically
but all the other ways count for more
than you could ever know.
following my heart
with you following yours.

one person hand in hand

it just me and you now
sitting here face to face
no one else to blame
but us right here
i want to take it all out now

fears anger any second thoughts
throwing it all out in the open
making sure its the right time
to let it all go
i want to let it all go
its only us now
sitting here
give your all to me
ill give my all to you
ill tell you all my comcerns
if you tell me all yours
we have no reasons to hold secrets
we share the same love
you and me
we are forever
and i know its going to be amazing
every step of the way
i cant wait until its here
when we are holding on everyday
its just me and you now
and the love we share
the things we bear
i want it all always
its just me and you now.

open my heart

trembling and shaking when i think of you
and the love that we share
so pure so innocent so lifechanging
to be treated well
feeling a little bit more selfworthing
theres something defintitly in the way
its my fear of my heartbreaking
its been fixed recently
and i just to keep it glued for now
i know i just need to let it go
give you the whole me and not just half of what i am
i let you break my walls and built them up again
my apologies will never be enough
to make me love me like you love me
i just need you in my life
something in the way
my inability of normalness
and to just let you in without a constant fight.
i am so in love with you even through my craziness.
just stick it out with me
we can work through anything
we a strong nothing can break our bond.

no longer a need for you

touching for the last time you should tell me how it feels
fading fast and so far away from me
your so naive you didnt even know
it was over between us
so sick of your incompetent apologies
there no good here
take it like a champ and walk away
far far away from me
gazing into the sky
hoping you would disappear for the last time
i so tired of begging you
restrain yourself from my life
take your pride that i left you and walk away.

perfect together better perfect strangers

im so beyond sick of this game you play
blaming your ignorant ways on me
take a step back its just me and you now
why cant we just go our own way
live life the way we want to
and just be a memory of what we once had
it was so good while it lasted
i couldnt imagine loving someone more than you
the smiles you put on my face
all the blushing and flattering
we went together like no one else
everyone around wanted to have what we had
the jealousy and intimidation could have been
cut with a knife
sexual chemistry was beyong amazing
but we just had to go there
bestfriends dont make lovers
we should have remembered that
wish i could take it all back
i would do it a little different
not letting you fall in love
not letting myself fall in love
that just set us up for hurt
now im broken and you cant fix it
total stranger are you listening
someone who knew me so well
doesnt know me at all.

looking in the mirror for a different image

im so insecure with myself
i need some guidance of lifting
to get out of this rift within
my insides feel like their caving in
when i think about what i have to offer
my looks personality attitude and
overall can not compare
to what someone else could give you
troubling the happiness there
with my jealousy rampages
why should i care but yet
it eats away at my heart
falling completely apart
im so insecure with myself
i need some guidance of lifting
to get out of this rift within
and believe i can be beautiful too.

i seek forgiveness even buried too far down

i refuse to be taking down with you
im running away without anyone
far away from anyone
in my mind things will be perfect
ending all this suffering and pain
ive endured with you
i think i need some time to sit down
to sit back a look at this
take a look at what ive become from this
what a fool ive been for so long
not so much caring and loving for myself
only for the others in my life
not enough time for me in here
im not going down im not going down
im not going down im not going down
im getting out
because theres hope for me
just not for you
your too deep in the ground
buried beneath it all.

bored bored bored
im so bored
nothing to do in here
stuck with nowhere to go
i cant get out no matter how
hard i try
bored bored bored
give me a hand and help
me out of here
tell me there is some light at the end
of this tunnel
are you so bored with this
have you tried to get out
and failed
im so bored
i may fight my way out
until it kills me
but ive gotta get out.

this new house is so pretty

im so happy because today i found myself
so lovely to findly know who you are
and what your purpose here is for
what a vast of knowledge i have
invested in
my change is coming
and i will know longer be in this place
ill be evolving into the beautiful person
i can and will be
better than you better than her
better than him
understanding is the key
this world is the lock
and i have just opened my final door.

sleeping with a stranger

you never cared about what i has to say
you never hear me when im talking
you just push me off like i dont mean anything
not going to repeat the past and let you
get away with it
denial and misunderstanding is all you
have for me
you make think its more but
theres no way you know
experience in life is not what
you have
take some advice from me
mature and grow before you
let go
of this time in your life
to get to know who you
are and would like to become
instead of wasting it all
on someone you dont even know.

i talk to the wall everyday and its not talking back

told you once told you twice
but your not listening
can you please tell me
why you keep doing the same
things over and over again
do you really like me this way
time after time we have fought
about this situatiton
yet you keep doin the same things
over and over again
automatic thinking i was overeacting
now i look at it at a different angle
not living life constantly fighting
declaring war every other day
its over if it doesnt change
ill listen to you if you listen to me
something that both of us can
oversee
talking is so easy
communication is so hard.

backstabbing the faithful

how could you have treated me this way
you said you loved me and you
broke my heart anyway
foolishly believing in you
thinking you could do no wrong
defending us against the world
crashing and burning in the end
with knowing that everyone
was right about you
so naive on what lifes about
your inconsiderate of others feelings
it always about you
uncaring who gets hurt on the way
to the top
your ignorance makes you very
unappealing to me
unexperienced is not an excuse
you just dont know how to be a friend
take a good look at yourself
losing me was a mistake on your part
but you will realize and when you
come around i will be gone
far far away from you indecisive ways
and your inability to be a decent person
your so vein.

days move forward with you

look in my eyes
feel my heart beat next to yours
smile with me and admire
what we are
one in one we dance away
the night
dreams take our breath
evolving any situation to the positive
bring out the amazing in us
reasoning would explain the bond
instant connection was in sight
drawn to you by sparkle in your
eyes and smile
had to stop and stare
and wander who this is
looking back at me
thinking of the way to make
my future move
letting fear and insecurity drive
much to my surprise
letting something else take over me
running into you with out any control
but bringing out a little confidence
changed us forever
and making my life so much better.

go get it

I dont want to change who you are
not a necessity
just know all that you can be
open your eyes and see
who special you are
your talents are incredible
your personality one of a kind
not pushing you is very hard
when i see more clearly
turning you around
and giving you the support
you need to take life in your hand
and support your own self
making your choices and your
own decisions all while
knowing you can do all you
can to be the real you.
you take life on your own.

others are born in another world

Seeing and knowing through
was difficult to adjust to
figuring out what lies beneath
like no one else
I understand what make us go around
i can feel what you cant
guiding others to their soul
making way for self growth
and knowledge within
growing up i knew i was different
never imaging how
i would turn into who i am now
sacrificing my own self to help others needs
putting my own needs aside to
help others suffering
the closer the heart
the more i can predict
your path of choices
to become the best that you are
good intentions of following
protecting my loved ones from
any harm that may come
from this place we reside in
maybe one day someone
will see and understand
exactly who i am
my abilities
my choices
my feelings
my mind
my soul
my love.

i cant live your life for you

Trying to create the new me
your eyes are full of deceit
i happen to like the way i am
but you cant seem to accept me
Trying to suck the energy out of me
blaming it all on the lack of ambition
i have yet i have more accomplishments
than you could dream of having
why cant you just live with who i am
Lately i have let your negativity
get the best of me
suffering and contemplating
of how i should change
not showing the real me i am
because im always a disappointment
in your eyes
im not living your life
maybe one day you will see
how great and important i can be
to everyone in my world
they can see how amazing i
have turned out.

growing with you

i cant imagine life without you
im so in love with you
im sure i could on
but the story would be over
so why even bother
working on our issues together
building dreams side by side
each word you say makes me warm inside
your touch makes me blush
your kiss makes my heart skip a beat
when i look into your eyes
i can feel us unite
i need you i need you
how sweet insides to hear those three words
i love u now and will forever
fighting for us until the end.

being with you

do you feel my heartracing
i feel your heart through your chest
sweat dripping from my brow
we too far in no turning back
on eachother now
i never felt complete
but with you i finally feel whole
can you feel our love tonight
can you feel my heart ache for you
do you know how breathtaking you are
turning me around opening my eyes slightly
by far you are the best i have ever had
so pure to the touch
our love is so real.

girl painted red black blue and purple

been beaten near death
all in the name of love
never undoing right from wrong
just following what i was told
excepting the unexceptable
all while being stuck in the tracks
i tried to fight out
but always caught and thrown back in
this just made things worst on me
love became hate
adoring became resenting
never thought i would live
to see my age increase
to much of my surprise
in myself
im still alive.

human rights

we have brought our race down
to a shameful point
i almost hate to say
that i am born in this place
too many think they can rule
why would want to own complete chaos
disappointment from above
theres no hope no cause
we all deserve to end up this
we all deserve this pain
we were all warned
change yourself
change your mind
change your life
change your ways
change but u all stayed the same
how do expect us to get better
all these viruses and deadly diseases
and you want your offspring to breathe
in this disgusting smog.
how you can you say your saved.

my heads too far under

i didnt think i would end up this way
we always said all we wanted was to be happy
how could i have taken happiness
for granted like this
fighting for all the wrong reasons
make others suffer for my
deadly ability to run
running to hide
hide from who i have become
we said it would end up this way
yet i find myself facing just
what i was supposed to stay
away from
all the teachings
wasted in one event
im drowning in my misery

losing my one and only

i almost lost it all
and yes it was because of me
he did nothing at all
not this time
hes perfect
hes so secure
sure of himself
and makes me pure
our smiles stories
love combined
we are strong loving
we will conquer it all
our plans will pass up you
together we put the best to shame
we are inseperable
but this all almost changed
im a runner
im lame
im not worthy of him
im indecisive
im needy
im useless in the end
im blind i feel dead mostly
i thrive on self guilt
i die inside when too happy
im sick demented
cant seem to function mostly
how could my incompetence
have let u slip by
im sorry
im broken
i need you all the time
if i say i dont
its a lie
dont let that change your mind
ill be there forever like i promised
just please hold my hand
and dont let me die.

what u mean to me but i cant say

never felt strong like this
having this someone stand by me
support and caring
the worst never comes from your lips
bad moods reflect none on me
your love just keeps giving
even if i try to stop it
your kindness overwhelms
the rudest
your nurturing is beyond
what i can ever offer
your heart is in mine
i feel my heart in yours
my bad day ends with your smile
your tears terrify me
your look intensifies me
your soul touches mine
even when im inbearable
which is most of the time
your hope secures me
you try to take away my fears
i need you to help keep me from drowing.

giving the advice but cant seem to take it

im afraid
afraid to move
afraid to stand
afraid to walk
afraid to breathe
afraid close my eyes
afraid to go to sleep
afraid to wake up
afraid to be live
afraid to love
afraid to be loved
afraid to be well
afraid to live
but far from being afraid
to die.

my love is all i have

give me your pain
hand over your hurt
i cant handle it all for you
heard and seen it all
felt the absolute worst
raped of my innocence
hell and back yet im still standing
ill fight for you
if you fight for me
taking it all in me
sweet sayings from my lips
brush your ears with love
cross your heart with grace
touch your soul with peace
fear not for you are safe with me here
bring it out set aside the nothings
the only time i feel alive is with us
settle on yourself
settle on me
settle on u and me
swallow your pride
for mine is gone
just take it all in
im trying everyday
this unity this one
this us
its gonna last.

once had it all and lost my mind

you said you would love me forever
be with me forever
unexpectedly ripped out my arms
jolting this bolt through my heart
taking all the memories out of head
rearranging my outlook on whats ahead
leaving me behind for the last time
i no longer sing for our future
holding my breath until eternity
making a fool of my accomplishments
and assperations
got little support from my half
got little support for your half
close your eyes and hold your breath
i always say goodbyes are saved for the end
freeing your from this paperless contract
we call love
no more see you later
no more talk to you later
giving you one last chance to
recoop your thoughts and
say goodbye.

reaching out

giving me a hand in this mess i call life
i see nothing ahead at this time
repossessing all my gains
soaking in all my losses
putting all my aggressions
in front of me
i cant eat
i cant sleep
i cant bare to breathe
i cant see my hand in front of me
for i am far too gone
crushed beyond repair
stuck with this blank stare
on my face
give my something
some sort of sign
im tired of begging
before i just end it all
this is no threat
i am soo sick
sick in the head
sick throughout my body
sick to my peers
i cant move at all
i havent for some time now
i have forsaken myself again
for i am not worthy
for i am not this way
cant keep attemping failure
no time to talk
no time for change
no time for this
tried all that and gave it up
i am nothing at all.

nothing

what do you do you u are nothing
what do you do when everything
you thought was real was fake
how do you cope
how do you defend
how do you manage to break away
from yourself
how do you help redefine yourself
on my own always
trying to make it
they say theres no hope
no gain no reason for living
beyond this point
i tend to disagree
but then get sucked back
into this gut wrenching despair
this nothing is making me want
to give up
this nothing makes me feel dead.

my heart simply beats for us

my heart simply beats for us
these continuous thoughts of you
missing you just became part of life
needing you is my drug
loving you is my addiction
giving you all i have
sometimes doesnt seem good enough
you will always tell me different
your half supports my half
my half supports your half
our whole makes the life
that we share and will share
for eternity you say
i like that
you me
us we
your love is my addiction
im addicted to you
bring forth yourself
thats all i want
ill bring myself
to trust and love
care and share
whats makes it worth
opening my eyes in the morning

forsaken but not regretting

how dare you take me forgranted this time
no right to interfere
no right for your input
its just not your time
its just not you life
let me live mine
ill stay away from yours
please give me the distance i need
before regretting becomes second nature
to you, to the world
i have raised my own self
sometimes i really wander
but im sure im just fine
ive got my faults
but they are faults of mine
i figured i would
be way past dead
by now i thought
i would be just a memory in your head
instead you have remembered
dismembered and run over me simply time and
time again.

incompetence

dont be afraid to step out your lines
cross between whats right and
what makes you feel alive
take this chance to turn it all around
make decisions that could change your life
proud of this moment in our lives
seclusively making this time to better us
do you know what makes me feel alive?
reborn again this time with this happiness
i cant seem to find
im not letting go of this
feeling in my heart
you will see how my mold
fits inside yours
you will see our callaboration
souls lips eyes
lets not talk about it
just take it in through you veins
feel it inside your body
embrace me
let your emotions run with mine.