cremated a little to early

somethings in the way
somethings in the way of me
figuring out the unnecessary
somethings in the way
constantly throwing myself into the fire
burning away ambitions
melting away asperations
somethings in the way
of my happiness
throw me to the wolves
and let me figure my way out
let me go overboard
whatever it takes to get me out the way
all myself turns to ash and dust
invisible to you all now
somethings in the way of me.

sitting here and looking back trying to stay in control of myself

its just me now
here all alone
which way do i look
which way do i go
im so lost without you
you make me whole
here i am
indulging in my self loathing pity
that i bring onto myself
sadness that overcomes me
so quickly sometimes
from the lack of my whole filling up
as i sit and evaluate my own life
analyzing the world
making sense of situations
my mind wonders
wonders for the bad mostly
driving me crazy with the miss
here i am all alone once again
to just sit and think
of how i just want to be with you.

miles couldnt keep us away from the one

i can feel you all around me
even when physically your miles away
savory the taste of kisses that you left me
so long ago
reminiscing all your touches on my body
recolation of all your love you leave for me


oh its so life altering
oh its so unfair sometimes
when all i dream of is in my presence
for such a short amount of time
thats why i have to just hold on
hold on to the familiar touch and sound
hold hold on to the perfection we make
to keep me completely sane and willing

i can feel you all around me
kissing and caressing my heart
staying in touch with our feeling
together we make everything reality.
we no longer have to dream
we are one
one reality that makes true happiness.

cloak of darkness has wrapped around me

its all just caving in
heart soul happiness life
fighting it to the extent of my ability
im not succeeding
you just keep coming back
my head feels so foggy
my eyes lost
my body is so limp
murdering myself is the only
thought thats getting in
i look at touch it
rub the blade with devious attempts
will i make this one count
digging it further in
im bleeding crying and just dont
know why i keep turning out this way
theres not much battle in me and
the devil knows
hes breeding on what could be
just take me now
end the suffering
and let the end come faster and sooner.

rising from the dead never felt so alive

hands tied
beaten black and blue
robbed left for dead
who would of known
all along what they
were really looking for
i cant see hear or think
for i hit my head
this bump keeps me
in a dreamlike state of despair
looking back now
this could have been avoided
if i would just have hold it in
but thats not me
the lord knows
i better myself in so many ways.
but im burning and bleeding
my insides falling out to the floor
they may believe ill just leave
but i dont
im stronger tougher a little rougher
and wont go down without a fight
just give me a little time to recoop
and everything will be alright
touch feel see taste
im coming
touch feel see taste
im coming back
you are not ready for this.

shhhh. just come and see

im ok
we're ok
lifes gonna be just fine
through ups and downs
lies and truth
who is by both of our sides
from the clouds up in the sky
to the deep blue ocean which
no one can find
we will find it together
the impossible is our possible
the unexpected is our expected
from the ones that come in
between us purposely
or mistakenly
we survive it all.

break me down to the new

new beginning new life
new love no fear
no strings attached
the new coming
is alterchanging
vigorously touching my heart
new chances new reasons
to be alive
i can feel it all around me
i savor the moment it
hit me
rejuvinating my actions
revitalizing my time hear
oh how i need the patience
to adjust to these changes
tearfully pushing in my beliefs
angrily testing my outlooks
i have come to this new
not letting go in this lifetime
but may there not be another one
to set back my time.